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God’s been doing some heavy-hitting in my life recently.
He is removing some things that offend him.
If you’ve ever been there you know the bitteresweetness of refinement. It burns, it hurts, it breaks us….but in the deepest part of our soul we yearn for it in light of the glory of God. We know that the breaking IS the blessing because that’s where we become more like Jesus.
So, one thing that’s gotta go is…performance based Christianity.
So many Christians fail to perceive UNCONDITIONAL love of God. It has taken me years to even begin to comprehend it. Especially since I grew up in a performance based home where nothing was ever good enough. If I got all A’s and one B it wasn’t “good job” it was “what happened with that B?”
Needless to say, when I accepted Christ in my life I had to unlearn that mentality and relearn UNCONDITIONAL. It’s a process.
God loves me no matter what. He loves me wildly when I don’t read my bible every day. He loves me wildly when I don’t pray. He loves me wildly when I have a crappy attitude. He loves me wildly when I don’t want to. He loves me wildly when I throw a pity party for myself. He loves me wildly when I choose to sin. He loves me wildly when I want to quit. He loves me wildly in my darkest moment.
He loves me wildly because when he looks at me he sees JESUS, not me.
Jesus died for me and saved me when I was his enemy. Ever since then he has stood before the throne of grace on my behalf.
HE chose to accept ME.
His love has never been conditional. It has never depended on me. So why in the world do I operate like it does? Why do I feel guilty if a day goes by and I haven’t read my bible or sat down to pray?
When we fall short we somehow think we’ve damaged our credibility with God. Our confidence in God is affected. We hold back. We fear. We’re timid. We think we won’t hear from him unless we do everything right. Maybe that’s what Satan wants us to believe.
The truth of the matter is that we are really human and God really loves us in spite of ourselves.
Real confidence comes from who he is, not what we do.
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Don’t tell…but I’m considering coming back.
God has done some amazing work.
But…I’m about to go on vacation, so the blog will have to wait.
Maybe I’ll send a picture.
